So having been locked for quite some time now, basically since August 15th! (easily a new record for me). We are coming to that time of year, with Loctober, NOvember & No Nut December. I don’t know if Miss has any ideas on them but I’ve been wearing a bra regularly since getting one and had my first day in the office yesterday which cause my self consciousness to rocket but my horniness to raise too. We’ve managed to have a few times playing since I was locked which has been really good.
Looking forward to this weekend we’ve got a couple of friends coming over for playing games, I’m planning to clean my guts today or tomorrow in preparation for the weekend I do like being able to feel sissy even if its under boy clothes whilst the friends are round.
So the last couple of days I’ve been wearing a bra whilst at home, we did some shopping pre holiday and Miss picked me up a non wired t-shirt bra which I wore a few times during the trip, its a 40C and fits fairly well. We did measurements using abrathatfits.org/calculator.php which admittedly put me at a 40DD which we reckon would be MASSIVE for my ample sissy bossom. Since we’ve been back we picked up a couple of underwired options in a 40B (my suggestion I admit) that I’ve been wearing since when not in bed. It has definitely made me more aware, we’ve only just got back from our post work dog walk and I couldn’t help wondering if anyone noticed during the walk I mean, when I look down I can definitely tell I look a little bit booby.
I do really want to get back to having the time to maintain my smooth from the neck down & cleaning of my insides, real life has been a bit of a bitch for that. I’ve also found myself daydreaming of Miss putting me into humiliating situations/conditions a lot. I think my brains rebelling against the real life and not feeling my sissy self.
So today we had no plans (yay! I’m an introvert and these types of days are my dreams). We went out early to go and get brunch, had a lovely walk and nice food and coffee which is always a good way to start a day for me. When we got back I had some time to myself played on my PC and then noticed Miss was napping, decided that due to this I’d go and do a small clean out with a quickish enema as I can easily do that without waking a napping Miss. Afterwards though I was to get dressed up for Miss and plug myself with the B Vibe we got and had very brief experience of (Miss accidentally turned it off during our last try whilst getting over excited xD).
Well… That thing is GOOOOOOD, first of all I admit I made a mess just putting it in it is a bit larger than the plugs we normally use and being in the bathroom on the floor putting it in did cause a large leakage. I was tasked with putting away laundry (it was about 3 weeks worth (long story…)), cleaning the bathroom and hoovering (I had to do a minimum of 1 of these today), I started with the laundry but Miss didn’t do much with the remote for the plug during this. Then had a break after way too much laundry putting away, and Miss decided to start playing with the remote. I was sat at my computer and after about 20 minutes felt the pressure building and immediately made another mess in my pretty thong. I then moved onto doing the bathroom and during 80% of cleaning the bathroom from top to bottom wiping everything and hand cleaning everything the plug was a constant source of pleasure, frustration and distraction. This thing is powerful, unexpected changes also help remembering Miss was in another room completely so I had no idea when they were coming.
Its a short short post for today, I’m not sure if Miss took any pictures but if she did I will update with those too.
Chatting with another sub online the other night, he was going through a tough time because of something he’d been aroused by and thought that he wanted to act it out because the level of arousal. After chatting for a while and describing experiences that were similar in that I sometimes have fantasies regarding cuckolding, being outed to family etc. which can all be extremely vivid, extremely personal and exceptionally provocative during those times when I do. However and it is a very big however I know that those aren’t things I ever want to truly experience I get that for others they’re kinks they live and breath but to me they’re on my list of “Most definitely, 100% no”, cuckolding for example I think would damage my relationship with Miss (who for new readers is also my wife) and that isn’t something I would ever risk regardless, it’s also something I don’t think I myself am mentally strong enough for not for it to actually happen I’ve been in relationships in the past where I’ve been cheated on (several times off the top of my head 3). Each time its hurt in unimaginable levels and whilst I imagine for some there’s a sense of catharsis in having some limited control of the situation, or even putting themselves through similar situation etc. but for me its a big blazing red light.
His fantasies were scaring him as they were on the extreme side of the kink world and I like to think I helped guide him a little bit.
It really got me thinking how over the years (I’ve dabbled, and fantasized about Femdom, chastity etc. for christ nearly getting on 2 decades… SCARY FACE MOMENT!) I’ve grown to kind of (not completely but getting there with help from Miss) work out what it is about kink that I like, what it is I want and need and looking back how whilst not the thirsty subs you get online lol how I’ve grown in my knowledge and understanding of myself and kink. I also recently picked up a copy of the “Yes, No, Maybe Workbook” which I’m looking forward to going through and see if I can expand on my understanding even more (I read voraciously and when I get into a subject I NEED to know things).
I’ve been having a lot of desires for humiliation and the lack of control aspects of play these last couple of days whilst caged, but yesterday was absolutely exhausted to the point I got home, went on the computer a short time before eating then hastily collapsing to sleep on the couch. Part of why my goal today (mini goals and such) is to sleep before 2am, something which hasn’t happened in several weeks!
So signing off on route to succeeding in that goal. As always anything anyone wants to ask regardless of subject or anything please feel free, I always respond to my comments and really appreciate input.
After spending a lot of hours dealing with an enema that was a long time in coming, I asked Miss if I could be locked. First she told me no, but she was planning to lock me later however after spending some time on the couch Miss came back into the room to say she’d changed her mind and that yes I could be locked now and to meet her in the bedroom.
On going into the bedroom I was told to strip (I was dressed in a pair of tiktok leggings (they’re amazing!)) and then told to get between her legs and kiss the parts which still hurt from being epilated the day before, kissing away like my life depended on it Miss started grinding herself on me and had me kissing her lips with the same vigor in no time (I admit I leaked on the bed sheets during this). She then forcefully pushed me away and told me to get the toy she’d got me for our anniversary, Miss tried putting it in but it was a tiny bit too big so I took over trying to get it in as I could judge the angle better, during this Miss would tug on her cock and balls which was painful but felt amazing being totally at her whim. After taking a minute out to relax myself I eventually got the plug in, and Miss started to play with the remote (it vibrates and has a part that makes it feel like being rimmed!) and I was in total pleasure whilst Miss still mercilessly teased her cock and balls.
Then Miss stopped and told me to start licking her ass whilst she was on all fours playing with her favourite toy, I couldn’t get enough of being her sissy ass licker and after I don’t know how many orgasms Miss lay down and we cuddled.
So following the UK changes to Christmas & the tier system our family plans took a major hit, which lead to me needing to take a trip to collect presents so they can be shipped to my sister. Normal drive there (although plugged, wearing fishnet tights, and a pink basque) but on the way back Miss had decided that I was to change out of my silly boy jeans and into a more appropriate skirt. To be followed by sending picture evidence, now the road between our city and Manchester is hilly and remote but fairly well travelled so I had to find a spot to stop over.
After finding a spot, I turned off the engine took out the key and ran to the passenger side of the car. Taking my shoes off outside lead to cold feet but I was too excited to care. I hurriedly took off the jeans and started taking a few snaps for Miss to enjoy, at which point cars started passing me stood in the dark next to the car (inside lights on) full beams of these other vehicles in my direction, I have no way to know what they saw but it made my blood pump so fast thinking someone may have seen this sissy little bitch by the road side, or thought they just got a view of a woman changing.
After letting my heart slow a little I got back into the car and moved on thinking of home and Miss, it wasn’t till I got to the next layby that I thought it was a nicer spot for some outside the car snaps getting excited again I was out of the car without any hesitation this time a few cars rushed by and I knew I looked hot as fuck and didn’t care what they saw, again out comes the phone and snap snap snap flashes in this black wilderness occasionally sprayed with car lights.
When I got home eventually after driving through McDonalds drive through all dressed up and masked to pick up our food I find Miss on the couch with our puppy all snuggled not feeling herself. So we ate looked after our pooch and I took her for her nighttime walk, several times having to bend right over (no one around) to stroke a very nervous slightly poorly pooch.
And that leaves me here, dressed up and horny but wishing a pooch and Miss to feel better.
With everything that’s been going on with the world, Miss decided we would take a break from all things kinky a few months back. So besides daily panties we’ve done no kinky activities. This also coincided with both of us (at separate points) leaving a discord community we’d been members / admins of for a long while.
The community had become something different from when we joined, and both of us felt whilst it had become much more active it also became a bit more unwelcoming. For me especially it was a tough decision to leave and it took a lot of thinking about before I did. Honestly though I think it’ll be very difficult to find somewhere like it used to be, and the biggest thing honestly is how unwelcoming it had got for femdoms due to a change in the verification process they implemented.
Anyways outside of that we’ve managed to beat the Rona blues by welcoming a new member to our household (our own little fur baby, who we rescued and she’s been amazing!). Anyway hopefully be posting a bit more in time to come but thought I’d give a brief update in the mean time.
Last night seems my mind couldn’t get a break from its horniness, when I woke up this morning found myself struggling against the cage even more than normal after my little nocturnal movie.
Slept through the night but woke with a memory of dreaming the following…
Miss had me fully dressed and plugged late at night, took me to the car heels and all then had me drive out to the countryside. It was when we got there she had me get out of the car and bend myself over the bonnet of our car, arms outstretched. She then tied one of my wrists, ran the rope around the car and then tied my other wrist. She did the same with my legs, so I was there fully dressed up all slutty and spread eagle bent over the car.
Once she had me right where she wanted me she proceeded to pull down my g-string, took out my plug and started licking my hole like it was her first meal on months. After she’d had enough of eating it she spanked my ass raw, with some balls slapping for good measure. Then she got some toys out of the back of the car and fucked me senseless until I lost track of time. Then she untied me had me lay on my back and face fucked me till she’d cum so much my face was covered with her delicious juices. Then without letting me clean up had me drive us home for some after play cuddling on our couch.
Miss decided it’d been too long since our flat had a good clean so today I’ve been dressed in a too short summer skirt (bum exposed), white blouse, pinky bralette, pink g-string and plugged. Started with the kitchen which is nearly spotless, having a short break for a smoke and sit before moving to do the kitchen floor.
Miss gave me a nice little spanking whilst popping the plug in and today more than most she could have me do anything she wanted. I’m in such a nice little sub bubble that she could use me in any way she wanted.
As I know you’ll read this, love you Miss. X
So with our wedding anniversary coming up and all of Miss gifts having arrived (woop!). I’ve been doing my best to stay in a state that Miss could at any time use me in any way, dress me up, use me etc. so my insides are sparkling and I’m smooth. Unless I’m having to go out I’m basically at most in panties but always ready for if Miss wanted to dress me up.
We’ve not been up to much lately because the quarantine is getting to us both at various points, but I’m doing my best to stay up beat about everything. Realistically it’s more about trying to keep each other sane and not get at each other, we’ve been doing lots of dnd and also family bits once a week or so to catch up with them as we only really have my family as such that we keep in touch with, it’s my sis, dad and aunt who all seem to be doing OK thankfully.