Thoughts and feelings | Me, my kink and I

Feb

Recent Envdeavours

So after a long hiatus of “Real life bullshit” in recent days/weeks I’ve been able to feel more of myself and therefore start getting more into doing things and thought I’d try to write something up about how I’ve been feeling lately as well as how we’ve come on as a couple.

Not gonna lie, 2022 kicked my ass all over the show. Family shit, followed by helping family, followed by being so utterly drained that it was difficult to think of anything never mind sexy times. Don’t get me wrong we found some time but much less than we would in any normal circumstance, I actually can’t put into words how much Miss supported me (and I her) through the past few years and I cannot even begin to thank her enough for that.

Recently I’ve been getting more into my sissy mindset, locking back up more and generally getting back to the things I enjoy/do to be able to enjoy being my Miss’ little slut. Throughout all the time I’ve still been doing the majority of the housework (which I enjoy with my service side and Miss loves me doing becaues she hates housework), I’m hoping now we’re getting over one of the big hills (theres others but one of) she can start making me dress more to do it. I’ve still been cross dressing but also realising that being NB its not so much cross dressing as just dressing how I feel.

I’m also trying to think of doing things for my sissy/exposure side once the weather heats up (Its freaking freezing and I’m still doing stuff but I want to think bigger xD). Like similar to when Miss had me drive out and take photos, as that has to be one of my favourite things I’ve ever done. I think I want to go out with some toys, dressed up and maybe take some video footage too x

Now for those of you that got through that, I’ve taken a few pics recently and for reading I feel you deserve a treat:-

Jun

“Natural state”

So something just happened on a lovely day of brunching and coffee, I’ve had a couple of days of not being in cage or being plugged. Sleep pattern got screwed this week and we’ve got a 4 day weekend thanks to the Queen. But basically did my usual “maintenance enema” the other day and haven’t plugged or cage since. We went out around 1ish to have some brunch and coffee while doing a very quick fire check out of a local market.

Now we’ve been home for a while and are leaving the dog walk till a bit later so that it’ll be a bit cooler when we do, I’ve just replugged & caged after which informed Miss with a new term of phrase for me “I’m back to my natural state, caged & plugged Miss”. Its probably the first time I’ve thought of it this way but it does feel more natural to be caged and plugged, and as its a “low maintenance” on her part bit of our kink I can’t believe its the first time I’ve thought of it that way but its so true.

Mar

It’s been a while

I feel the name of this post will age people, some people may read that in a melodic method as if sung and others will just be like “what a boring name”. Recently though I’ve been being locked/dressed a lot more, these last couple of weeks in particular I’ve been in stockings, suspenders, bra & panties a lot more frequently and whenever this boys sissy bits aren’t in use I’ve been locked and plugged 100% of the time. It is at the point where anything to do with Miss’ sexiness can make me leak (for instance last night on the couch Miss allowed me to have my face in her ass and I leaked immediately).

This set is what I’ve got on at present, working from home in just my pants does definitely make my day more interesting xD. Of course when I’ve had to go into the office I’ve also worn this under clothes which again makes the days filled with “are bits showing”. I love this bra, it makes me incredibly booby (I’m 42C/40D naturally…) and love having my boobs played with, nipples teased, boobs squished etc.

I’m basically a walking talking sissy slut in heat at the moment x

I’ve also got a consultation coming up for Laser Hair removal which I’m kinda excited about, its just a consultation and if I get it will depend on the finances around it all but I do hope I can.

Dec

Some fun on Wednesday and living in stockings

Delayed post with a bit of a thing about our fun, Miss had ordered me stockings for Christmas and has given them to me early (we’re spending Christmas with family) and other than today I’ve spent every day wearing full underwear including stockings switching between using suspenders or straps from the corset on days I was wearing that. It really does make a huge difference on feeling my legs under clothes and constantly reminds me of my sexy underwear (especially walking as the straps rub lightly against my skin).

Onto the Wednesday fun, after a day of being in the office with constant hesitation on whether people could see my suspender straps when/if my tshirt rose up I got home to Miss saying it was time for me to do things to her. We warmed up with kissing, touching etc. and then Miss got on all 4s and I was licking her from behind whilst Miss teased her nipples, during this I leaked on the bed and Miss came a few times. Then I was told to go uncage and I could have a reward of fucking Miss, problem being that after leaking all over the bed lets just say “he wasn’t prepared” and in substitution I was using my hands whilst trying desperately to get hard. Multiple orgasms later from the vibrator, my fingers & me furiously trying to get hard for her, Miss collapsed on the bed and giggled at how at this point he finally started to rise now that she was spent.

So both an amazing, humiliating and frustrating experience (what I got into chastity for really isn’t it).

Dec

What’s under the covers, and sometimes over

So it’s been a long while since I’ve made a post at all and figured it made sense to put something together with a few pictures and such as way of a mini apology for the time.

So blackfriday & generally wanting some more sissy dress up clothes came together and got Miss’ boy on a small shopping spree. picking up bras, suspenders, panties and a corset. All of which I’ve fallen in love with and now wear daily, I’ve had a few bras from shops and such but went a little ham on getting some sexy sets xD. I’ve got pictures of 3 of them below and then a few pics of Miss wanting to see as she’s just described it moments ago “the merchandise”.

We have been doing a bit more in terms of me dressing up around the house and under silly boy clothes lately with me being in dresses, just the underwear or such and I’m loving it. We were actually out today and had an older gent stop to ask us directions and before he spotted my stubble (Miss doesn’t want me shaving which I’m fine with) he said “Hello ladies” and once we’d given him help with the directions and drove off I said to Miss “Is it bad that I kinda liked him saying that”. Miss has also been a bit happier demanding me show myself off when we’re out (obviously not forcing our kinks on others etc. and making sure its safe).

Out and about while whatever the weather as proven by the snow on the ground in one of them! I love my Miss so much xD

I’ve also been spending ALOT of the time plugged up and in stockings which just make me feel sexy xD

Last couple of pics I promise one to show (to the eagle eyed) my plugged up sissy hole and the other to show my working day casual style.

Yesterday was a really fun day too, we had a couple of friends around for a games day where we played board games, caught up, had delicious food and then listened to some music before I dropped them off home. After dropping my last friend home I found a quiet place and stripped down to my stockings, panties, bra, suspender belt and plugged up sissy hole. Wearing just that I started to drive home (taking a slightly longer route), now this was at 2.40am so few people around but “some” and some stopping next to me or around me etc. I felt so exposed, slightly humiliated and so freaking horny. Whilst I was going I did leak into my panties and on getting home put on my boots, picked up my trousers & top and walked back into the house in naught but my sexy underwear then had to spend some time chilling out as I always do after doing games day drop offs but this time feeling sexy.

Nov

On the right path

This weekend was a nice change of pace for us, we had some friends visit and played some board games while entertaining them and their little one. Had a lovely cheesecake made by Miss and generally didn’t get up to much else outside of our normal dog walks etc. I was left alone yesterday while Miss went to watch an anniversary showing of Harry Potter which was nice, me and our pup just having a relaxing day and having a big old walk in the rain.

I did manage to do a maintenance cleaning of my guts on Friday so have been plugged for the past couple of days as near to permanently as possible. I also ordered some new clothes for myself on Friday, a sexy lingerie set (suspenders, bra and thong) and a new jumper dress which should arrive this coming week. I do love dressing up, and especially love trying to be sexy for Miss. It always makes me feel extra slutty for her and lately I’ve been in that state of “ready to do anything she wants”, I have had a couple of points of leaking either while putting the plug in or even when doing epilation of my groin area. Miss has never been into cum play (past experiences have put her off anything cum related) but my immediate reaction has been to “clean my mess” lets say. Leaking in my cage hasn’t been often but the clean up has been every single time.

I do hope we get a bit more play time, and when I’ve got my new clothes I might do a wee fashion shoot so my next blog post can include some pics.

Sep

Cumming up to Locktober

So having been locked for quite some time now, basically since August 15th! (easily a new record for me). We are coming to that time of year, with Loctober, NOvember & No Nut December. I don’t know if Miss has any ideas on them but I’ve been wearing a bra regularly since getting one and had my first day in the office yesterday which cause my self consciousness to rocket but my horniness to raise too. We’ve managed to have a few times playing since I was locked which has been really good.

Looking forward to this weekend we’ve got a couple of friends coming over for playing games, I’m planning to clean my guts today or tomorrow in preparation for the weekend I do like being able to feel sissy even if its under boy clothes whilst the friends are round.

Sep

Tease to the point of Explosion

Getting into bed last night I found a Miss that was still very much awake, struggling to sleep following on from having a cold and being looked after. Snuggles ensued with me being big spoon for a time until Miss told me to roll over, she decided that then was the time to start teasing her cock through its cage. Moaning and groaning whilst miss slowly teased her caged cock which has basically been caged apart from cleaning times since early August it wasn’t long till she got me to the very edge of exploding in the cage, and I soon found myself lying in a very big wet patch as she pushed me over the edge.

Then she told me to get her favourite toy (https://www.womanizer.com/uk/pro-40#color=77) sadly it hadn’t been charged recently so it was to the trusty wand, I was allowed to kiss, suck, bite and tease her nipples whilst running my hands over her body (I LOOOOOOVE doing this) and soon Miss was cumming hard.

Very small update but its been so long that I needed to get a new post up xD

Sep

Sizing and wearing

So the last couple of days I’ve been wearing a bra whilst at home, we did some shopping pre holiday and Miss picked me up a non wired t-shirt bra which I wore a few times during the trip, its a 40C and fits fairly well. We did measurements using abrathatfits.org/calculator.php which admittedly put me at a 40DD which we reckon would be MASSIVE for my ample sissy bossom. Since we’ve been back we picked up a couple of underwired options in a 40B (my suggestion I admit) that I’ve been wearing since when not in bed. It has definitely made me more aware, we’ve only just got back from our post work dog walk and I couldn’t help wondering if anyone noticed during the walk I mean, when I look down I can definitely tell I look a little bit booby.

I do really want to get back to having the time to maintain my smooth from the neck down & cleaning of my insides, real life has been a bit of a bitch for that. I’ve also found myself daydreaming of Miss putting me into humiliating situations/conditions a lot. I think my brains rebelling against the real life and not feeling my sissy self.

Aug

Day of tidying and BVibe… WOW!

So today we had no plans (yay! I’m an introvert and these types of days are my dreams). We went out early to go and get brunch, had a lovely walk and nice food and coffee which is always a good way to start a day for me. When we got back I had some time to myself played on my PC and then noticed Miss was napping, decided that due to this I’d go and do a small clean out with a quickish enema as I can easily do that without waking a napping Miss. Afterwards though I was to get dressed up for Miss and plug myself with the B Vibe we got and had very brief experience of (Miss accidentally turned it off during our last try whilst getting over excited xD).

Well… That thing is GOOOOOOD, first of all I admit I made a mess just putting it in it is a bit larger than the plugs we normally use and being in the bathroom on the floor putting it in did cause a large leakage. I was tasked with putting away laundry (it was about 3 weeks worth (long story…)), cleaning the bathroom and hoovering (I had to do a minimum of 1 of these today), I started with the laundry but Miss didn’t do much with the remote for the plug during this. Then had a break after way too much laundry putting away, and Miss decided to start playing with the remote. I was sat at my computer and after about 20 minutes felt the pressure building and immediately made another mess in my pretty thong. I then moved onto doing the bathroom and during 80% of cleaning the bathroom from top to bottom wiping everything and hand cleaning everything the plug was a constant source of pleasure, frustration and distraction. This thing is powerful, unexpected changes also help remembering Miss was in another room completely so I had no idea when they were coming.

Its a short short post for today, I’m not sure if Miss took any pictures but if she did I will update with those too.