A frustrating evening

Yesterday evening after work, having decided earlier in the day that She would like another fucking with the strapon, and that I would be allowed a blowjob as a reward if I was able to not spurt during fucking her with the strapon. We warmed up with me licking and fingering Miss as well as her using the wand on her clit. I’d already caged Miss’ cock and put on the strapon harness, with the big thick 8″ cock. After she felt ready Miss told me to fuck her, despite being caged I still had a very messy ruined orgasm.

Now came the problem, not at all of any action of Miss. I’d been really looking forward to being in Miss mouth, to say she’s talented would be an understatement. I’ve never cum in her mouth even during the time whilst we were relatively vanilla (due to her personal dislike of cum due to previous relationships), but she is more than capable of getting me insanely worked up and close. So you can imagine how I felt about myself, I’d just managed to blow an amazing opportunity to have a lot pleasure all due to being incapable of stopping myself spurting. Miss wasn’t disappointed, or let down etc. but it put me in a very off mood for the rest of the evening. At myself but I can understand it wasn’t fun to be around me in that mood. I loved how much Miss enjoyed me fucking her, and the resulting orgasms. I really do, I just really need to work on being able to get over my own failure to control myself. For a long time it’s been something I’ve despised about myself (hated is far too mild a word for it). I don’t lack in size, I’m above average and I know what to do with it but I’m incapable of controlling when I spurt, whether it’s to full orgasm or ruined. It’s beyond a joke how quickly I need to stop in a stop start technique, I’ve tried cialis and over the counter sex shop pills, I’ve tried prescribed medical numbing cream.

Miss is going to assist me in edging sessions (blog post to follow after today’s experience). Anyway that’s a enough for now I think, if anyone wants to ask anything or has any suggestions please comment or contact me.