This weekend was a nice change of pace for us, we had some friends visit and played some board games while entertaining them and their little one. Had a lovely cheesecake made by Miss and generally didn’t get up to much else outside of our normal dog walks etc. I was left alone yesterday while Miss went to watch an anniversary showing of Harry Potter which was nice, me and our pup just having a relaxing day and having a big old walk in the rain.
I did manage to do a maintenance cleaning of my guts on Friday so have been plugged for the past couple of days as near to permanently as possible. I also ordered some new clothes for myself on Friday, a sexy lingerie set (suspenders, bra and thong) and a new jumper dress which should arrive this coming week. I do love dressing up, and especially love trying to be sexy for Miss. It always makes me feel extra slutty for her and lately I’ve been in that state of “ready to do anything she wants”, I have had a couple of points of leaking either while putting the plug in or even when doing epilation of my groin area. Miss has never been into cum play (past experiences have put her off anything cum related) but my immediate reaction has been to “clean my mess” lets say. Leaking in my cage hasn’t been often but the clean up has been every single time.
I do hope we get a bit more play time, and when I’ve got my new clothes I might do a wee fashion shoot so my next blog post can include some pics.
These last couple of days I’ve become some what of a messy panties sissy. I’ve basically been on some sort of heightened state constantly which has resulted in the slightly aching balls and frequent leaks into my panties.
It’s been a constant battle with Miss also not feeling great, me being in the office both days. I’ve been behaving and looking after Miss without a thought for my release.
So here I am sat on the couch, Miss wrapped up with a hot water bottle wish she feel better soon.
So having been locked for quite some time now, basically since August 15th! (easily a new record for me). We are coming to that time of year, with Loctober, NOvember & No Nut December. I don’t know if Miss has any ideas on them but I’ve been wearing a bra regularly since getting one and had my first day in the office yesterday which cause my self consciousness to rocket but my horniness to raise too. We’ve managed to have a few times playing since I was locked which has been really good.
Looking forward to this weekend we’ve got a couple of friends coming over for playing games, I’m planning to clean my guts today or tomorrow in preparation for the weekend I do like being able to feel sissy even if its under boy clothes whilst the friends are round.
Getting into bed last night I found a Miss that was still very much awake, struggling to sleep following on from having a cold and being looked after. Snuggles ensued with me being big spoon for a time until Miss told me to roll over, she decided that then was the time to start teasing her cock through its cage. Moaning and groaning whilst miss slowly teased her caged cock which has basically been caged apart from cleaning times since early August it wasn’t long till she got me to the very edge of exploding in the cage, and I soon found myself lying in a very big wet patch as she pushed me over the edge.
Then she told me to get her favourite toy (https://www.womanizer.com/uk/pro-40#color=77) sadly it hadn’t been charged recently so it was to the trusty wand, I was allowed to kiss, suck, bite and tease her nipples whilst running my hands over her body (I LOOOOOOVE doing this) and soon Miss was cumming hard.
Very small update but its been so long that I needed to get a new post up xD
So the last couple of days I’ve been wearing a bra whilst at home, we did some shopping pre holiday and Miss picked me up a non wired t-shirt bra which I wore a few times during the trip, its a 40C and fits fairly well. We did measurements using abrathatfits.org/calculator.php which admittedly put me at a 40DD which we reckon would be MASSIVE for my ample sissy bossom. Since we’ve been back we picked up a couple of underwired options in a 40B (my suggestion I admit) that I’ve been wearing since when not in bed. It has definitely made me more aware, we’ve only just got back from our post work dog walk and I couldn’t help wondering if anyone noticed during the walk I mean, when I look down I can definitely tell I look a little bit booby.
I do really want to get back to having the time to maintain my smooth from the neck down & cleaning of my insides, real life has been a bit of a bitch for that. I’ve also found myself daydreaming of Miss putting me into humiliating situations/conditions a lot. I think my brains rebelling against the real life and not feeling my sissy self.
Last night as many nights really, I found myself unable to sleep so rather than just fester or play games like I’d normally do. Instead I took the time provided by my abnormal sleep to epilate my legs and bikini line, it does make me feel more me (the sissy bitch me) so after my drive to work this morning one of my couple of days in the office a week I keep finding myself enjoying the feel of my smooth legs through my silly both clothes.
Annoyingly it does seem that the sleep abnormality is tied to work because the entirety of last week whilst we were on holiday I was able to sleep normally.
I know bit of a strange update for me but as I use this more as a journal figured I’d put this out into the aether.
So today we had no plans (yay! I’m an introvert and these types of days are my dreams). We went out early to go and get brunch, had a lovely walk and nice food and coffee which is always a good way to start a day for me. When we got back I had some time to myself played on my PC and then noticed Miss was napping, decided that due to this I’d go and do a small clean out with a quickish enema as I can easily do that without waking a napping Miss. Afterwards though I was to get dressed up for Miss and plug myself with the B Vibe we got and had very brief experience of (Miss accidentally turned it off during our last try whilst getting over excited xD).
Well… That thing is GOOOOOOD, first of all I admit I made a mess just putting it in it is a bit larger than the plugs we normally use and being in the bathroom on the floor putting it in did cause a large leakage. I was tasked with putting away laundry (it was about 3 weeks worth (long story…)), cleaning the bathroom and hoovering (I had to do a minimum of 1 of these today), I started with the laundry but Miss didn’t do much with the remote for the plug during this. Then had a break after way too much laundry putting away, and Miss decided to start playing with the remote. I was sat at my computer and after about 20 minutes felt the pressure building and immediately made another mess in my pretty thong. I then moved onto doing the bathroom and during 80% of cleaning the bathroom from top to bottom wiping everything and hand cleaning everything the plug was a constant source of pleasure, frustration and distraction. This thing is powerful, unexpected changes also help remembering Miss was in another room completely so I had no idea when they were coming.
Its a short short post for today, I’m not sure if Miss took any pictures but if she did I will update with those too.
So a female friend of mine posted about an online bra fitting site a couple of months ago, I spoke to Miss about it as this sissy has never had a real bra and we decided after pay day that Miss would measure me up and we’d look to get one for me. It’s something I’ve always been curious about, and being on the chubby side I can have quiet a good cleavage *blush*.
Am looking forward to it, both the measuring by Miss (which will have its own bit of humiliation even if Miss just grabs a tape measure and cracks on with it) and then the looking and shopping for something in my size. As I say with the cleavage I hope we can find something pushuppy to and maybe something more for everyday wear under boy clothes. I’ve got a few bralettes which do a bit already so fingers crossed.
So hopefully this time next week I’ll be able to dress up and have a bra 😮
Starting the week as I mean to go on, attempting optimism which is in itself strange. Today I went with a very cute thong for my underwear choice.
I’ve been caged a little over a week now and starting to feel it, my need to be penetrated, used or humiliated has been on the rise throughout too. Its clearly tied to the cage and the feeling of being owned that gives constantly.
We’ve both been a bit tired but I’m trying to keep ontop of that and stay in the mindset but still have slips of snappiness related to the tiredness.
Chatting with another sub online the other night, he was going through a tough time because of something he’d been aroused by and thought that he wanted to act it out because the level of arousal. After chatting for a while and describing experiences that were similar in that I sometimes have fantasies regarding cuckolding, being outed to family etc. which can all be extremely vivid, extremely personal and exceptionally provocative during those times when I do. However and it is a very big however I know that those aren’t things I ever want to truly experience I get that for others they’re kinks they live and breath but to me they’re on my list of “Most definitely, 100% no”, cuckolding for example I think would damage my relationship with Miss (who for new readers is also my wife) and that isn’t something I would ever risk regardless, it’s also something I don’t think I myself am mentally strong enough for not for it to actually happen I’ve been in relationships in the past where I’ve been cheated on (several times off the top of my head 3). Each time its hurt in unimaginable levels and whilst I imagine for some there’s a sense of catharsis in having some limited control of the situation, or even putting themselves through similar situation etc. but for me its a big blazing red light.
His fantasies were scaring him as they were on the extreme side of the kink world and I like to think I helped guide him a little bit.
It really got me thinking how over the years (I’ve dabbled, and fantasized about Femdom, chastity etc. for christ nearly getting on 2 decades… SCARY FACE MOMENT!) I’ve grown to kind of (not completely but getting there with help from Miss) work out what it is about kink that I like, what it is I want and need and looking back how whilst not the thirsty subs you get online lol how I’ve grown in my knowledge and understanding of myself and kink. I also recently picked up a copy of the “Yes, No, Maybe Workbook” which I’m looking forward to going through and see if I can expand on my understanding even more (I read voraciously and when I get into a subject I NEED to know things).
I’ve been having a lot of desires for humiliation and the lack of control aspects of play these last couple of days whilst caged, but yesterday was absolutely exhausted to the point I got home, went on the computer a short time before eating then hastily collapsing to sleep on the couch. Part of why my goal today (mini goals and such) is to sleep before 2am, something which hasn’t happened in several weeks!
So signing off on route to succeeding in that goal. As always anything anyone wants to ask regardless of subject or anything please feel free, I always respond to my comments and really appreciate input.