Femdom | Me, my kink and I

Aug

Day of tidying and BVibe… WOW!

So today we had no plans (yay! I’m an introvert and these types of days are my dreams). We went out early to go and get brunch, had a lovely walk and nice food and coffee which is always a good way to start a day for me. When we got back I had some time to myself played on my PC and then noticed Miss was napping, decided that due to this I’d go and do a small clean out with a quickish enema as I can easily do that without waking a napping Miss. Afterwards though I was to get dressed up for Miss and plug myself with the B Vibe we got and had very brief experience of (Miss accidentally turned it off during our last try whilst getting over excited xD).

Well… That thing is GOOOOOOD, first of all I admit I made a mess just putting it in it is a bit larger than the plugs we normally use and being in the bathroom on the floor putting it in did cause a large leakage. I was tasked with putting away laundry (it was about 3 weeks worth (long story…)), cleaning the bathroom and hoovering (I had to do a minimum of 1 of these today), I started with the laundry but Miss didn’t do much with the remote for the plug during this. Then had a break after way too much laundry putting away, and Miss decided to start playing with the remote. I was sat at my computer and after about 20 minutes felt the pressure building and immediately made another mess in my pretty thong. I then moved onto doing the bathroom and during 80% of cleaning the bathroom from top to bottom wiping everything and hand cleaning everything the plug was a constant source of pleasure, frustration and distraction. This thing is powerful, unexpected changes also help remembering Miss was in another room completely so I had no idea when they were coming.

Its a short short post for today, I’m not sure if Miss took any pictures but if she did I will update with those too.

Aug

Fitting

So a female friend of mine posted about an online bra fitting site a couple of months ago, I spoke to Miss about it as this sissy has never had a real bra and we decided after pay day that Miss would measure me up and we’d look to get one for me. It’s something I’ve always been curious about, and being on the chubby side I can have quiet a good cleavage *blush*.

Am looking forward to it, both the measuring by Miss (which will have its own bit of humiliation even if Miss just grabs a tape measure and cracks on with it) and then the looking and shopping for something in my size. As I say with the cleavage I hope we can find something pushuppy to and maybe something more for everyday wear under boy clothes. I’ve got a few bralettes which do a bit already so fingers crossed.

So hopefully this time next week I’ll be able to dress up and have a bra 😮

Aug

Thoughts after a conversation

Chatting with another sub online the other night, he was going through a tough time because of something he’d been aroused by and thought that he wanted to act it out because the level of arousal. After chatting for a while and describing experiences that were similar in that I sometimes have fantasies regarding cuckolding, being outed to family etc. which can all be extremely vivid, extremely personal and exceptionally provocative during those times when I do. However and it is a very big however I know that those aren’t things I ever want to truly experience I get that for others they’re kinks they live and breath but to me they’re on my list of “Most definitely, 100% no”, cuckolding for example I think would damage my relationship with Miss (who for new readers is also my wife) and that isn’t something I would ever risk regardless, it’s also something I don’t think I myself am mentally strong enough for not for it to actually happen I’ve been in relationships in the past where I’ve been cheated on (several times off the top of my head 3). Each time its hurt in unimaginable levels and whilst I imagine for some there’s a sense of catharsis in having some limited control of the situation, or even putting themselves through similar situation etc. but for me its a big blazing red light.

His fantasies were scaring him as they were on the extreme side of the kink world and I like to think I helped guide him a little bit.

It really got me thinking how over the years (I’ve dabbled, and fantasized about Femdom, chastity etc. for christ nearly getting on 2 decades… SCARY FACE MOMENT!) I’ve grown to kind of (not completely but getting there with help from Miss) work out what it is about kink that I like, what it is I want and need and looking back how whilst not the thirsty subs you get online lol how I’ve grown in my knowledge and understanding of myself and kink. I also recently picked up a copy of the “Yes, No, Maybe Workbook” which I’m looking forward to going through and see if I can expand on my understanding even more (I read voraciously and when I get into a subject I NEED to know things).

I’ve been having a lot of desires for humiliation and the lack of control aspects of play these last couple of days whilst caged, but yesterday was absolutely exhausted to the point I got home, went on the computer a short time before eating then hastily collapsing to sleep on the couch. Part of why my goal today (mini goals and such) is to sleep before 2am, something which hasn’t happened in several weeks!

So signing off on route to succeeding in that goal. As always anything anyone wants to ask regardless of subject or anything please feel free, I always respond to my comments and really appreciate input.

Dec

Thoughts and such over the festive season

Having been walking pooch each evening in sissy clothes, it really got me thinking how much I enjoy dressing up. Especially being a little show off slut like I was the other night. I’ve always been a bit more uninhibited than the average person but dressing up and being outside makes me that little bit excited, that little bit scared and all the turned on.

I’ve been caged pretty much all of this month which probably adds to that last part but it does make me want more clothes, a better option for hair management (currently looking at home laser hair treatment options). Then once covid has come and gone (or is more under control) I could in theory just get the areas the home laser treatment can’t do waxed.

In other news Christmas has come and gone and I love everything Miss got me, she gave me a few bits before we travelled to family (few kinky items) and we brought everything else over with us and I’m over the moon with everything and glad everyone enjoyed my first Christmas Dinner (although for a much smaller group than normal due to following all the guidelines :))

Dec

A very interesting evening

So following the UK changes to Christmas & the tier system our family plans took a major hit, which lead to me needing to take a trip to collect presents so they can be shipped to my sister. Normal drive there (although plugged, wearing fishnet tights, and a pink basque) but on the way back Miss had decided that I was to change out of my silly boy jeans and into a more appropriate skirt. To be followed by sending picture evidence, now the road between our city and Manchester is hilly and remote but fairly well travelled so I had to find a spot to stop over.

After finding a spot, I turned off the engine took out the key and ran to the passenger side of the car. Taking my shoes off outside lead to cold feet but I was too excited to care. I hurriedly took off the jeans and started taking a few snaps for Miss to enjoy, at which point cars started passing me stood in the dark next to the car (inside lights on) full beams of these other vehicles in my direction, I have no way to know what they saw but it made my blood pump so fast thinking someone may have seen this sissy little bitch by the road side, or thought they just got a view of a woman changing.

After letting my heart slow a little I got back into the car and moved on thinking of home and Miss, it wasn’t till I got to the next layby that I thought it was a nicer spot for some outside the car snaps getting excited again I was out of the car without any hesitation this time a few cars rushed by and I knew I looked hot as fuck and didn’t care what they saw, again out comes the phone and snap snap snap flashes in this black wilderness occasionally sprayed with car lights.

When I got home eventually after driving through McDonalds drive through all dressed up and masked to pick up our food I find Miss on the couch with our puppy all snuggled not feeling herself. So we ate looked after our pooch and I took her for her nighttime walk, several times having to bend right over (no one around) to stroke a very nervous slightly poorly pooch.

And that leaves me here, dressed up and horny but wishing a pooch and Miss to feel better.

Jun

An exciting dream

Last night seems my mind couldn’t get a break from its horniness, when I woke up this morning found myself struggling against the cage even more than normal after my little nocturnal movie.

Slept through the night but woke with a memory of dreaming the following…

Miss had me fully dressed and plugged late at night, took me to the car heels and all then had me drive out to the countryside. It was when we got there she had me get out of the car and bend myself over the bonnet of our car, arms outstretched. She then tied one of my wrists, ran the rope around the car and then tied my other wrist. She did the same with my legs, so I was there fully dressed up all slutty and spread eagle bent over the car.

Once she had me right where she wanted me she proceeded to pull down my g-string, took out my plug and started licking my hole like it was her first meal on months. After she’d had enough of eating it she spanked my ass raw, with some balls slapping for good measure. Then she got some toys out of the back of the car and fucked me senseless until I lost track of time. Then she untied me had me lay on my back and face fucked me till she’d cum so much my face was covered with her delicious juices. Then without letting me clean up had me drive us home for some after play cuddling on our couch.

Mar

A weekend of looking after

Miss came down in pain on Saturday morning (Friday night as she went to bed). So the weekend was spent looking after her mostly, making her call the non emergency NHS number on Sunday night which resulted in a rather unexpected visit from a pair of lovely ambulance men, net result of which was “Call the GP in the morning”, although they did offer to take her into hospital.

Monday when we she got the call back resulted in a couple of prescriptions for a large amount of pain meds. Thankfully she’s starting to feel better and got a much better nights sleep last night (as did I, I’d previously had 2 sleep less nights with a few naps during the days to top up).

Hoping we can get some play in once she’s feeling better and definitely looking forward to restarting our daily walks. Neither of us has come down with CV19 as yet which is good news, and we’re still taking all the precautions advised. Can’t wait to get back to some normalcy.

Feb

Little late but I think I have some resolutions (or just things I’d like)

So after the not so fun ass whipping last year (and the start to this) gave me, and Miss (although to a lesser extent) I’ve come to the conclusion that with life having got in the way too much this year is the year for us (fuck the other years!). Its taken up to this last weekend for me to feel good enough to shave, clean out with a good enema and ask if Miss would allow me to be caged. There have been work choices I’ve made in error but I think now I’m finally getting back to being the submissive, slutty, sissy me that I am deep (although when out, not very deep at all!) inside.

See this last week was my birthday, so this weekend involved a trip to my family filled with cake and nice food (much like my birthday which Miss treated me very well on (more to follow)). So I’ve been wearing panties the majority of the time even when down, although some boy pants were worn at various points either because I was way too low or because of tummy problems. I even bought myself a very cute little skirt that I’m hoping Miss has me wear for her at some point maybe with a few pics taken to show you guys, girls and gurls.

I’m really hoping for Miss to feel herself again, she’s picked up a lot of hobbies which is brilliant but I want her to feel that again she can take full control and make demands of me and I suppose this post is me voicing that. I really want to get back to being her sissy slut and doing anything she wants as and when she wants.

Oct

Work, work, pain balance

So been a little quiet the last few days, but there has been some kink in the mix of crazy amounts of work and stressful days. Works been a bit of a bitch, just got a few new things we’re set to do which is all fine etc. but first day we’re due to start 3 client facing systems decide to go kablooey. Leaving me and my one colleague in my team rushing around to sort them and forgetting our new task. Gotta say less than ideal, we got it done about 1 hour or so later than planned annoyingly and with a bit of snark from our manager. What can we say multiple systems break we fix them in an hour and then get snark for the new thing slipping our minds with the critical incidents setting fires…

In terms of kink though, I had another spurt (pardon the pun) of ejections. Miss was making cake for a charity day at work (same charity as my custard & cinnamon buns), and in between bakes she had me come kiss her beautiful ass. As she was due back in the kitchen she told me I had to follow and didn’t instruct me to stop kissing, I must say you see people doing this in videos etc. and its quiet the workout to keep up with the walking folk and continue to kiss an ass. Immediately Miss laughed a bit and every bit of my body reacted with me very soon finding myself in very damp panties. Once she was done in the kitchen I continued following as she’d not said to stop and was lead to the bedroom where I was placed at the end of the bed, face inches from her after handing her the wand. Again whilst she was playing I left several wet patches not just in my panties but soaking through to the bed itself.

Now the funny thing is we have a very powerful wand… during playing Miss pulled my head that close to watch her playing that I actually found my head was touching the vibrator, on several occasions the bridge of my nose too. It took so much willpower not to laugh (its rather amusing having a powerful vibrator touching your head!) and actually couldn’t help myself but laugh once, and begin sneezing a few times (bridge of nose + vibrator = better than pepper to make you sneeze!). After a few orgasms Miss stopped and I had to tell her the above, we both laughed and cuddled for a bit before going back to snuggle on the couch.

Other work stuff in between has just been chaotic at best, especially as Miss has had a very bad tum since around Friday/Saturday (can’t recall exactly) so we’ve been dosing her with pills & milk of magnesia, hopefully she’s getting better as I hate seeing her in pain like she’s been.

Anyways, thought I’d give a brief update on what we’ve been upto. Please don’t hesitate to comment or drop me a message.

Sep

That was unexpected…

The baking went down well today, I may not have won star baker but then the judges 1.) didn’t like cinnamon & 2.) didn’t get any of my egg custard because it was gone before they could.

Today again Miss hasn’t been feeling great, so an evening looking after her. When I got home I made a shopping list of items we need and meals we could have over the next week and rushed to the shop. Spent next to no time getting things and rushed home to feed Miss, I’m only still up because I’m making sure she has leggings for work tomorrow. It’ll be a long day because I’m dropped her off at 7.30am and then working for a bit from home before going to the dentists.

The unexpected turn to my evening, whilst sat at my desk just toddling around online I kind of accidentally rubbed my nipple… and instantly started to feel that familiar pulse between my legs, and there I was not shooting more dribbling a full load. Now since getting back from the shops I’ve been plugged, in my nice little nighty and a very very sexy g-string. But this is the first time I’ve experienced quiet a reaction from nothing, now I’ve cum from just pleasuring Miss, I’ve cum very fast in other scenarios but wow a rub of my nipple and boom. I had started to get the slight familiar ache in my balls but this seems to have alleviated that too. So that’s a good thing, or else I’d have had to request unlock from Miss (I’m not kidding since surgery on my testicles pain there = me not walking/moving).